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Death Long Suffered (NC-17) Print

Written by Alcardilmë

09 December 2009 | 33441 words

Chapter Eight – Healing Begins

Boromir handed the cup to Faramir who promptly sloshed its contents over his arm. Frustrated, the young man clenched his teeth. That motion sent rivulets of pain up his now-healing jaw and into his empty eye socket. The cup dropped and Boromir caught it.

Blushing in shame, he sighed, “I am thorry. I cannot do thith.”

“No, Faramir, you can. I have told you, it will take time to adjust. With only one eye, you must compensate, but soon, I promise, it will be as if you have both. Your body will adjust.”

His younger brother sighed. “I am impa— Ow! Impathient.” He held his jaw and grimaced.

“You have been the embodiment of patience. I would have thrown the cup.” Boromir laughed and Faramir joined him.

“Ith the patch weady?”

“The eye patch? It is. I think Siriondil planned to try it on today. See how it feels.”

“Good. I… I do not wike otherth theeing me thuth.” The young man’s face blushed in shame. “Hath the thwelling lethened?”

“Has the swelling lessened? You still look like one of the spoiled, fat babes in cook’s family.”

Faramir chuckled, but laughter is a thing for pain, when one’s jaw is not quite healed. He hissed and lay back on the pillows.

“Here, Faramir,” and Boromir handed him another cup.

“You awr merthileth, Bowomiwr,” Faramir cried out.

“Take the cup.”

Tears filled Faramir’s eyes, but did not spill. “You think I am wowrth aw thith twouble?”

Growling, Boromir smacked Faramir on his good arm. “Take the cup!”

Faramir reached for it and finally grasped the cup without spilling or dropping it.

“See,” Boromir congratulated him, “you can do it. By this time tomorrow, the peas will not spill from your fork.”

“I doubt that. Unleth you gwue them to it.” Faramir smiled.

“Unless you? Oh, glue. That will be enough for today, Faramir You did well. Rest now. Ioreth will be here soon to read that horrid book.”

“It ith not a howwid book. It ith fathinating. Laer Cú Beleg, the Thong of the Gweat Bow. It ith about the Elfen awrchewr, Beweg.”

Boromir smiled. “I only tease, sweet Faramir. I know your love of the bow; listen and be lifted by the tale. Though if I remember rightly, Beleg is killed?”

“That he ith, but nonetheleth, the book ith thtirring. The thong toucheth my heart.”

“Then I will leave you to Ioreth and Beleg.”

He kissed his brother lightly and turned to leave. Before his hand touched the door, he heard a small sound and turned to find Faramir in tears. “What, Faramir? Do you hurt? Do you need help?”

“I wiwl nevewr be able to dwaw my bow, wiwl I?”

Boromir angrily strode towards his brother’s bed. “You will not only be able to draw it, you will win at next year’s tournament.” He knelt and took Faramir’s hand in his own. “I promise it.”

“I cannot thee it. My weft awm…”

“Is intact. It will take time to rebuild the muscles, but Faramir, you have such a gift for the bow. That is the important thing, the gift. When your arm is strong again, you will find the gift has not abandoned you.”

“Ath you have not,” Faramir whispered.

Boromir lunged forward and took his brother in his arms. “I will never abandon you, little brother. I would die first.”

Faramir returned the embrace as well as he was able. “Do not die on me, Bowomiwr. Pleathe.”

His brother smiled and stood. “Tell that to the Orcs.” The stricken look on Faramir’s face cut him. “I am sorry!” he cried aloud. “I am so sorry.”

“Nay. I am aw wight. I wust do not want to think of Orcth at the moment.” He buried his head in his good arm. “I have tawked to them too much, of wate.”

Heartsick, Boromir knelt again at his brother’s side. “Think not on it. I am a fool. A damnéd fool.”

“Then it muht wun in the bwood, for I am one to wet it bothew me.”

A knock at the door interrupted them. “Rest now,” Boromir touched his brother’s cheek. “I will return for the daymeal.”

“Pleathe do not, Bowomiwr. You have thpent the night with me. Take thome weth yourthelf. I wiwl thee you tomowwow?”

“I will be here. Father will spend the night with you.”

“Then go and reth, Brothiwr. I wove you.” The whispered words were not heard; Boromir was already out the door.

Siriondil waited in the corridor. “I have the patch ready, but I am not happy with it.”

“May I see it?”

The Master Healer held out a small black cloth with ties attached. Boromir hissed. “It is rather large, is it not?”

“It will fit the eye. I measured thoroughly.”

“Of course you did. Mayhap if it were white. It just seems so… so… By the Valar, Siriondil, it will draw attention to his missing eye, not turn it aside!”

“I think, no matter what the color, it will give it prominence. But not nearly as much as the empty socket does. Black is the usual color for these things.”

“I suppose you are right.” Boromir’s head hung.

“How does he this day?”

“Frustrated.” At last a small smile lit Boromir’s face. “He calls me merciless, but he was able to take the cup without mishap.”

“A good sign. He is adjusting.”

Boromir bit his lip. “His foot, Siriondil? Will it permanently maim him?”

“Yes and no. It depends upon his attitude.”

“Will he be able to ride again?”

“He will. Our craftsmen are creating a boot for him that will help him walk with only a small limp. He has feeling in the foot, and that is a good thing. His leg is more of a concern at the moment. The knife slashed through muscle, but I believe it is healing. He will need strong thigh muscles to hold onto a horse, to compensate for the foot. It will take months to regain such muscles in that leg.”

“Then it will take months,” Boromir stated flatly.

“I understand you gave up your commission?”

Boromir flinched. “Do not tell Faramir. He would… He would blame himself.”

“Is your father speaking to you?”

Laughing lightly, Boromir shook his head. “Not yet. But he will, when Faramir is recovered and returned to duty.”

“You have hope that he will return to duty?”

“Dearest friend, when we were but children, my uncle told Faramir and me tales of pirates with one eye and a stump for a leg who ran about ships and ordered about men and wrecked havoc on Belfalas’ boats. If a brigand can do that, then I know Faramir can. That is why I turned in my commission. If I work with him every day, if I show him I believe he can return, then he will. He is resilient, Siriondil, and brave beyond description.” Tears fell.

Siriondil bowed his own head. “Then I will help you in whatever way I can.”

“Boromir!” the overloud call of Ioreth interrupted them. “Is aught wrong? Has there been a relapse?”

“Nay, Ioreth. I am tired. Did you bring the book, the one with the song?”

“I did. I have it right here and a marker for where we stopped, though how I would ever forget as we are now at the part—”

“Good,” Boromir interrupted the steady flow of words. “Faramir is anxious for you to continue.”

“As am I. Boromir. I am delighted that he allows me to read to him. I do so love a good story. I—”

Siriondil raised his hand and Ioreth closed her mouth. The healer put his hand on Boromir’s shoulder and squeezed it. “Are you well?”

“I am.”

“Please, Boromir. I have been your family’s healer since before you were born. I read distress in your eyes.”

“It is difficult, sometimes, keeping up Faramir’s spirits.”

“Ah. He suffers today?”

“Not in body, well, no more than usual, but in mind. He is impatient with himself.”

Siriondil smiled. “Then he will enjoy listening to Túrin. The Man was always impatient.”

“Thank you, Siriondil.”

“Boromir, take your horse and go afield this afternoon. Once Ioreth is done with the book, I will stay with Faramir and your father has promised to be with him tonight. Spend time in the sun, with fresh air in your face.”

“I will.”

“Boromir?”

“I promise, Master Healer. After a bath and some food.”

“Do not let any waylay you. You must care for yourself too, if you are to have the strength to carry Faramir.”

“I will.”

Siriondil let go his shoulder and motioned for Ioreth to enter the room. Boromir heard the happy call of welcome from his brother and his face lit in joy. Slowly he made his way back to his own rooms and fell onto the bed, asleep in moments.


A/N – From The Silmarillion: Chapter 21: Of Túrin Turambar – Laer Cú Beleg, the Song of the Great Bow.

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43 Comment(s)

An interesting start to the story. Poor Faramir! I look forward to the next installment.

— Ria    Friday 24 July 2009, 2:40    #

Saw this started on Henneth-Annun, and hoped it would come here as well. A very difficult topic, and you are handling it with great care!

— ebbingnight    Friday 24 July 2009, 23:45    #

Many thaks Ria and ebbingnight for reading. I hope you enjoy this. It is a bitter-sweet little tale. Alcardilme

Alcardilmë    Monday 3 August 2009, 20:57    #

I have not been to this site for quite some time now. I havn’t had time but I have missed it. I found some free time today and I sat down to see if there were any new stories, and I found yours. I once made a promice that I would never again read a WIP that wasn’t finnished. I will never be so foolish ever again, I can’t belive that I almost missed this. Now here I am with my heart in my throat just waiting for a new chapter. I love this story. The way you are jumping between time is so skillful, it’s just perfect. The subject is indeed a hard one but the way you are dealing with it is remarkable.
Thank you for letting us read this story. I am hooked.
Thank you

— Ingrid    Wednesday 5 August 2009, 10:06    #

Many thanks, Ingrid. For your hearts ease, this tale is complete; (I have felt the same way abouts WIPs – which made me vow never to start a tale and not finish it!) I am just putting it up chapter by chapter… trying to put up one every 4-6 days. I hope I sustain your interest and delight! You really help a writer feel good.

Alcardilmë    Wednesday 5 August 2009, 13:26    #

My heart be still!
You really do know how too keep a girl in suspence. I just love it. It’s so perfect and the way that you write sends shivers down my spine, in a most delightful way, I am a lover of a beautiful language and yours… I can’t even find a word to do it justice.
How i wished that I could write like you but sadly that is a talant I am denied. Lucky for me I can always come here and read it over and over again and it will always be here.
Thank you again

— Ingrid    Sunday 9 August 2009, 21:00    #

blushes Thank you very much. Even after all these years of writing, it still tickles my heart to be so kindly applauded. Again, 10,000 thanks!

— Alcardilmë    Monday 10 August 2009, 0:24    #

Yes!! One more chapter.
I am so glad that Faramir is awake but I fear for him as he in time comes will remeber or find out what has happened to him, how will he cope with that? What a sweet song Boromir sang to him, you have really captured the love between them in a beautiful way. I hope that Boromir can help his ‘little one’. Boromir reminds me so much about my own big brother, so I can’t help but love him.
I am thankfull that Denethor is not a brutal monster but that he actually care about both his sons. It is sad though, that it would have to come to such a terrible thing like this for Denethor to show some love and concern for his youngest.
Can hardly wait for the following chapters.
Hugs

— Ingrid    Friday 14 August 2009, 21:51    #

Thank you so much! The way that Tolkien describes B & F’s love for each other in the Appendix is so beautiful and poignant – especially considering what happens in their lives. (the song is one I made up and sang to my own children; they now sing it to theirs!)

As for Denethor – it would be rare indeed for me to ever ‘abuse’ the man. I thought he was a tragic hero in LotR.

Bless you for your kind words and your enthusiasm. MOST appreciated!

Alcardilmë    Saturday 15 August 2009, 3:43    #

(Whispers between tears) Thank you so much.
Lovely and beautiful is not enough for such a story.

— Ingrid    Wednesday 19 August 2009, 12:07    #

Ah, Ingrid – offers a clean hanky – sorry for the tears, but I’m glad they were ‘happy’ tears… or perhaps contented tears. Bless you!

Alcardilmë    Thursday 20 August 2009, 2:40    #

You are so talented. The way you write, it feels like I am almost there, like I am a spirit standing beside and can do nothing but witness the horrors.
You are a genious, a creator, a wounder.
I wish that my first language was english so that I could realy tell you what my heart speaks

— Ingrid    Saturday 29 August 2009, 10:19    #

Your heart speaks through your words and mine is forever toched.

Bless you for the very kind review. I am grateful beyond words!

Alcardilmë    Sunday 30 August 2009, 21:02    #

I feel blessed for being able and allowed to read this. The story is so wonderful, I will never be able to thank you or praise you enough. Everything just gets better and better. Poor Boromir, trying so hard to do what he think is best for Faramir, and poor Faramir who can’t understand why his beloved brother has changed so much. I have said it before and I say it again, I wished that I had your talent for writing.

—    Wednesday 9 September 2009, 14:28    #

I cannot thank you enough for this review. I just got totally, soundly, and horrendously rejected for my tale, Betrayed, at Henneth Annun.

So the timeliness of your kind words are as a soothing balm upon my dispirited and distraught soul.

Thank you – ten thousand times!!!!

Alcardilmë    Wednesday 9 September 2009, 23:01    #

I apologize that this is the first time I have left a note on this. Quite frankly early on when I saw what happened to our poor Faramir, I wasn’t sure my heart could take it and I had decided not to submerge myself. That being said, I have to tell you that I just couldnt help myself. This tale is just so wonderfully woven that I just cant let it go. I keep coming back again and again hoping our Faramir will be whole again. I have a great visual in my head of the happenings here and it keeps calling me back. Thank you for this. Based on what I see here I find it difficult to see anyone rejecting your material. Is this story on this site somewhere? Can we read it?

— Kelly    Wednesday 9 September 2009, 23:52    #

Like Kelly, I was rather wary of getting involved with the characters in this tale. I first saw it on HASA. The rape and torture of dear Faramir are quite difficult for me to endure. (I must admit to reading those parts quite quickly, with one eye closed!) The rest of the story, however, is so skillfully told and the love between the brothers is so achingly beautiful that it touches my heart.

— trixie    Thursday 10 September 2009, 0:55    #

Thanks so much, Kelly, for your review. It is beautiful. This came out of a nightmare I had; I could not sleep afterwards until I had written it down. Then, the Muse just continued – bless her! It turned into a bitter-sweet little thing that breaks my heart.

Very glad you pushed through that first chapter. It is difficult.

My other tale is posted here http://www.faramirfiction.com/Fiction/betrayed

Blessings,
Alcardilme

Alcardilmë    Thursday 10 September 2009, 10:50    #

Ah, trixie, I wrote that first chapter with my eyes closed. I hated the things that happened to Faramir. He will heal, with the help of Boromir, but Boromir never will. Life can be like that sometimes.

I love your phrase ‘achingly beautiful’ – it well describes what is in my heart about their relationship.

Bless you for your kind words. They are most appreciated!

Alcardilmë    Thursday 10 September 2009, 10:56    #

I checked out Betrayed. I thought it sounded familiar. I did read it when it was posted. I liked it very much. This story also made my stomach hurt in the beginning but I couldn’t keep from reading on. I guess there is always someone that is not going to like everything. You write beautifully and the rest of us enjoy your work very much.

— Kelly    Thursday 10 September 2009, 14:36    #

Many thanks, Kelly. Even though I have written for quite some years, this year has been a difficult one. I am glad the Muse has not abandoned me, and very glad I found this site. Very decent people here. Bless you!

Alcardilmë    Friday 11 September 2009, 9:47    #

This story has everything. Love, hate, terror and even happiness.
My heart aches for the trauma Faramir is going through and for Boromir who can’t, or rather won’t, give voice to what is troubling his heart.
The way you build up the chapters and when they end one can’t seem to stop think of what will happen next, that is a heard thing to accomplish, but you have mastered that.
I am forever grateful that you had the courage to write this story.
When my returning nightmares hunts me and I am to afraid to face them, I turn to this story and I can for a short time forget my own fears.
Thank you forever and ever.

— Ingrid    Sunday 20 September 2009, 10:22    #

Many thanks for your kind words! I am so grateful this story strikes a chord. After finally realizing what the Muse wanted from the nightmare, I could only succumb and write it.

Again Many Thanks!

Alcardilmë    Wednesday 23 September 2009, 20:53    #

Our poor, gentle and sweet Faramir.
He have so much to deal with. I hope that by telling what he has been forced to endure he will come to understand that love can be something nice. I also hope that he will finally be able to sleep through a night without terrors.
Even though it brakes his heart I am sure that Boromir never will leave him or blame him for what has happened.

— Ingrid    Friday 9 October 2009, 23:01    #

That chapter was incredibly difficult to read. I can only imagine what it must have been like to write. And I do not even want to imagine what it must have been like for Boromir to hear.

— trixie    Friday 9 October 2009, 23:47    #

Ah, Ingrid – though this is AU, Boromir will leave for Rivendell… it is written in the stars.
And Boromir’s love for Faramir is quite extraordinary. But so is Faramir, is he not!

Alcardilmë    Sunday 11 October 2009, 5:27    #

Many thanks for the support on this, Trixie. It was written because of a nightmare – and this is chapter is what I saw. Nasty – to say the least!
As for Boromir – how could a brother stand to hear, let alone bear, such things? Especially one who loves his little brother with his very being?

Alcardilmë    Sunday 11 October 2009, 5:31    #

I truly admire your courage in seeing this through to the end: I suspect that many writers would soften the story somehow. But most nightmares, by definition, don’t have happy endings, do they?

— ebbingnight    Wednesday 14 October 2009, 15:42    #

This nightmare was even worse. I did tone it down a bit, except for Chapter 15. I have no idea why I dreamt of Faramir and in such dire circumstances!

Many thanks for your review and your kind words.

Alcardilmë    Sunday 18 October 2009, 5:21    #

This tale is so harrowing that at times I need to turn away. Yet it is so gripping that I cannot. I almost feel obligated to Faramir, Boromir, and you to hear this out.

— trixie    Tuesday 10 November 2009, 22:43    #

Many thanks, trixie, for not running from this tale. The brothers love for each other compells me to continue to write this.

Your comments are most appreciated. Faramir and Boromir thank you too.

Alcardilmë    Friday 13 November 2009, 5:03    #

So sweet and wonderful. I love this story so much. Thank you for sharing it with the rest of us

— Ingrid    Friday 13 November 2009, 7:43    #

I think we all needed a wee bit of a break – a smile or some such. VERY thankful for your kind comments and for your continued support.

Alcardilmë    Monday 16 November 2009, 4:32    #

Of Course you have my support. I could never leave this story nor quitting comment it. You have taken this story to a whole new level. In the beginning I feared reading, like I knew what might happen. I think I have an idea now as well… but now I am anticipating :) It is a remarkable story and you are a fantastic writer

— Ingrid    Wednesday 18 November 2009, 11:48    #

Ingrid – thanks again for your comments. Always heartening to me.

I am afraid I might disappoint you – this tale is near its ending – it doesn’t end the way I thought it would. :(

Alcardilmë    Tuesday 24 November 2009, 19:51    #

Chapter 20 made me smile and even chuckle. Any joy they can experience is precious. But, oh, this latest chapter. . . Poor Boromir, willing to give anything of himself to help his brother.And poor, poor Faramir, realizing now what he has asked of his brother.
Caterwauling is perfect :)

— trixie    Wednesday 25 November 2009, 19:00    #

This was a heartbreaking chap. Poor Boromir and Faramir. I fought not to let tears appear, but I failed miserable.

Thank you so much Hugs

— Ingrid    Monday 30 November 2009, 12:48    #

Hi, Trixie, thanks for the kind words. When one loves deeply, one will do anything… and one will be asked sometimes beyond one’s capacity… the brothers are definitely tragic characters… even in Tolkien’s books.

Alcardilmë    Tuesday 1 December 2009, 21:00    #

Ah, Ingrid… this was difficult, wasn’t it? But Faramir is now ready to continue living, though the price Boromir paid for his brother’s healing is immeasurable… Thanks for your support!

Alcardilmë    Tuesday 1 December 2009, 21:03    #

This story was wonderful. What a strange feeling now that the story has ended. Poor Boromir. I loved how you got the title of the story into the story itself. You are a true artist in your work.
Alcardilmë, I salute you.
*Kneels in front of you, with my head bowed*

— Fëawen    Thursday 10 December 2009, 7:54    #

It’s a very strange feeling being done with this – as this, I think, is one of my favorites. Many thanks for your kind words. I kneel in thanks!

Alcardilmë    Wednesday 16 December 2009, 4:53    #

The brothers have never failed to touch me. Even during a time in my life when I felt numb to everything. their tale was able to cut through the fog and move me.

The description of this tale is one that at one time I never would have opened, especially with the word ‘incest’. But I am so glad I did! It was beautiful and wrenching and captured the depth of the selfless love and devotion between the two so beautifully. Thank you!

— trixie    Friday 18 December 2009, 5:57    #

Trixie – my deepest thanks. The brothers and their love is beyond endurance – whether it be slash or not. I loved Tolkien’s appendix note about their love. Self-less and deep as the sea. Bless you for commenting!

Alcardilmë    Sunday 20 December 2009, 4:42    #

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